"Friend"

"Who is your best friend?" the pastor asked us to share with the person closest to you. The immediate answer when I asked myself this question, was a slight hesitation... then I realised the Lord is my best friend. I guess He is the only one I feel thoroughly comfortable sharing all that is really happening in this little world of mine.

The next person I could think of was, my hubby. He is the only other person who I share with. But I wonder, why do I call someone a friend? Other than that, I also realised that I have a really small circle of true friends. It did not use to be that way. When did my heart become so small? hehehehe. I know Jesus also had his circle of closeness. Is life really like this?

I have some people I embrace readily with open arms. Quite a number. But that circle that really shares my heart and who shares their hearts with me transparently bothways is really small. I ask myself, How many friends do I have? Am I being a friend to others as well? Do I truly value them individually as friends, or do I by default see them as people to minister to? It is scary when I think about it. And Jesus said, You are now my friends. When did that happen? What closed the transitional gap between disciples and friends? Was it at the point of realisation of who He really is -- the Son of God?

What made God call Abraham, friend? I am still grappling with these issues, and I really want to be a friend of God. Yes, I consider Jesus my best friend. But have I opened my heart to him completely that He can trust me in return? Sometimes, even though I know I love Him, yet I am also aware of a holding back. I have just been made aware of this, and I really want to give him my all -- may the mediations of my heart and the words of my mouth be acceptable to Thee, O Lord.