resolutions for the new year
A few areas to re-build in my life this year:
1. desire and ability to hear God - practice, practice, practice, practice, practice, pratice, practice. And desire, desire, desire, desire, desire, desire, desire, desire to hear God's voice clearly and accurately.
2. Faithfulness in stewardship - using everything He gives with faithfulness, not wasting anything. It starts with... d (that's for me to know) haha, embarrasingly.
Some personal things I am pondering about that is related with the above:
The gift of healing. Oral Roberts has passed on. I want his mantle - on healing. Question: is this my portion from the Lord? Will I waste it? Or am I just covetous? I have not even made any roads into reading John G Lake as yet.. :(
Building a home and support base properly for hubby and baby, and myself.
Realisation: Everything to me stems down from hearing from God.
If I cannot even hear, how can I have confidence?
Tonight at Gim Han & Steph's wedding, we heard a testimony about his brother. How the weather forecast said it was going to rain from 5 pm to 7 pm, and they had planned a Garden Wedding. He said he relied much on his brother, and his brother said in a "Zen-like calmness" - Give me an hour and I will tell you what to do." (The family are committed believers). After an hour, the brother asked him whether he wanted a garden wedding or indoor. He said, Garden. The brother replied, Then ask the hotel to set up the Garden. It shall not rain."
Hence we witnessed God's blessings and promises. It was a beautiful Garden wedding with great weather yesterday evening. The whole family was praying that it would not rain. God answered.
Hubby said the brother was "my gang". Later on the way home, I asked, whether do I speak like that, Give me an hour. Hubby said, I used to - when he first met me. But not currently. Now I lack confidence. He said I got messed up in a certain environment in the past. It was a shock to hear that. But I guess, it's a wake up call.
I used to see God's miracles. Our God has not changed. But now, more than anything, I would like to have a relationship with Him - where He answers prayers, like the prayer for rain. He is ever faithful. I want that relationship back. No matter what, who, or whatever that has happened - it should not matter. What should matter is, do I know who my God is. Do I KNOW Him, and can I again be the person who wants His will established on earth as it is in Heaven? I want to be. My prayer, Father, is, let me have once again, the relationship that is so unshakeable with You. So the world may know that You live. In Jesus's name, amen.
Thought reminder: It starts with a foundation in the word. The rain came down and the house on the rock stood still.
As I blog this, I just realised what I am really looking for: the me whom God sees and made. Father, may this be a year of restoration and foundation building based on Your Word. I want to trust You fully. in Jesus's name, amen. Yes, a year of hearing God's voice, God's word.
Right now, I feel really inadequate as a friend's parent lies in the icu due to the rupture of an aorta from heart to leg. Father, please hear my prayer, please restored completely Your life to all her body cells. Give her a new aorta, a complete new and strong aorta. Yes, restore completely all her leg muscle cells and every cell in her body, let it be filled with Your life. Let her have new arteries and veins, not given by men, but by God. Let us see Your glory. Forgive me my lack on trust. Lord You have not changed, from everlasting to everlasting - YOu are the same.. So this is not impossible for You. Your ear is not heavy that it cannot hear, nor Your hand too short it cannot save. Lord it is a very small matter to You. Let it be, just say Yes to this prayer, and let it come to pass completely. Complete healing for M's mom. Give her a new faith in You, completely unshakeable. And give M and me too a fresh new unshakeable faith. We choose to trust in You. In Jesus' name. Amen.
Been weak too long. Feel there are barriers limitng God in my heart that needs to be broken, and can only be so when I decide to ask Him for the impossible, more and more. Let's be strong in the Lord and in the name of the Lord, we shall have victory. Amen.
Note: This is written solely for Girl's sake and reminder - since harly anyone reads this blog anyway haha. So I feel safe. If you happen to read it, happy new year & let's trust the Lord together for greater horizons. :P
1. desire and ability to hear God - practice, practice, practice, practice, practice, pratice, practice. And desire, desire, desire, desire, desire, desire, desire, desire to hear God's voice clearly and accurately.
2. Faithfulness in stewardship - using everything He gives with faithfulness, not wasting anything. It starts with... d (that's for me to know) haha, embarrasingly.
Some personal things I am pondering about that is related with the above:
The gift of healing. Oral Roberts has passed on. I want his mantle - on healing. Question: is this my portion from the Lord? Will I waste it? Or am I just covetous? I have not even made any roads into reading John G Lake as yet.. :(
Building a home and support base properly for hubby and baby, and myself.
Realisation: Everything to me stems down from hearing from God.
If I cannot even hear, how can I have confidence?
Tonight at Gim Han & Steph's wedding, we heard a testimony about his brother. How the weather forecast said it was going to rain from 5 pm to 7 pm, and they had planned a Garden Wedding. He said he relied much on his brother, and his brother said in a "Zen-like calmness" - Give me an hour and I will tell you what to do." (The family are committed believers). After an hour, the brother asked him whether he wanted a garden wedding or indoor. He said, Garden. The brother replied, Then ask the hotel to set up the Garden. It shall not rain."
Hence we witnessed God's blessings and promises. It was a beautiful Garden wedding with great weather yesterday evening. The whole family was praying that it would not rain. God answered.
Hubby said the brother was "my gang". Later on the way home, I asked, whether do I speak like that, Give me an hour. Hubby said, I used to - when he first met me. But not currently. Now I lack confidence. He said I got messed up in a certain environment in the past. It was a shock to hear that. But I guess, it's a wake up call.
I used to see God's miracles. Our God has not changed. But now, more than anything, I would like to have a relationship with Him - where He answers prayers, like the prayer for rain. He is ever faithful. I want that relationship back. No matter what, who, or whatever that has happened - it should not matter. What should matter is, do I know who my God is. Do I KNOW Him, and can I again be the person who wants His will established on earth as it is in Heaven? I want to be. My prayer, Father, is, let me have once again, the relationship that is so unshakeable with You. So the world may know that You live. In Jesus's name, amen.
Thought reminder: It starts with a foundation in the word. The rain came down and the house on the rock stood still.
As I blog this, I just realised what I am really looking for: the me whom God sees and made. Father, may this be a year of restoration and foundation building based on Your Word. I want to trust You fully. in Jesus's name, amen. Yes, a year of hearing God's voice, God's word.
Right now, I feel really inadequate as a friend's parent lies in the icu due to the rupture of an aorta from heart to leg. Father, please hear my prayer, please restored completely Your life to all her body cells. Give her a new aorta, a complete new and strong aorta. Yes, restore completely all her leg muscle cells and every cell in her body, let it be filled with Your life. Let her have new arteries and veins, not given by men, but by God. Let us see Your glory. Forgive me my lack on trust. Lord You have not changed, from everlasting to everlasting - YOu are the same.. So this is not impossible for You. Your ear is not heavy that it cannot hear, nor Your hand too short it cannot save. Lord it is a very small matter to You. Let it be, just say Yes to this prayer, and let it come to pass completely. Complete healing for M's mom. Give her a new faith in You, completely unshakeable. And give M and me too a fresh new unshakeable faith. We choose to trust in You. In Jesus' name. Amen.
Been weak too long. Feel there are barriers limitng God in my heart that needs to be broken, and can only be so when I decide to ask Him for the impossible, more and more. Let's be strong in the Lord and in the name of the Lord, we shall have victory. Amen.
Note: This is written solely for Girl's sake and reminder - since harly anyone reads this blog anyway haha. So I feel safe. If you happen to read it, happy new year & let's trust the Lord together for greater horizons. :P
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