Ramblings, wonderings

These past weeks have seem seamless literally. Trying to juggle family, work, ministry and caking has been tiring for the past two months. There are of course, little spots of rest. What I think drains me the most is driving in the hot, humid weather, where every trip is about one to two hours, and I come home feeling swamped. On top of that the need for more time commitment and work regarding the calling. I wonder, in the end - whether any of these will matter. I cannot recall any conversation my hubby had with me this past week. The last things we ever chatted about were about aliens. Yes, ETs, its existence, and where its can we fit it in our tiny tunnel vision theories. To me, even little chats about strange things going-ons in hubby's mind is precious. Precious because it is still a form of connection. Very unfortunately, the last chat also had to be cut short due to work. It was really funny. Now I wonder what is going on in hubby's mind this week. I kind of miss him and his wide-ranging chats. I don't venture into those areas - partly because I am often too physically drained when I get back. The son is also preoccupied with Minecraft Cities, underwater critters, narwhals, sharks, adelie penguins, mythological creatures - which are, and which aren't. I think he knows the names of more creatures than I do at this point. My own mind at night is filled ongoing thoughts - is what I am doing even worth doing. Yup, all these three strange people with vastly different trains of thoughts stay in the same little home. MY family matters to me most. I wonder in trying to do what is neccessary, whether I can keep the priorities in their proper perspective, and not lose sight of what is important. For now, just one conversation at a time - is important to me. Even if it is about sticking tow items to make a sword, or about aliens and their existence. It is important because I want to know what is in their hearts and minds. In a way, it is a way to express the love of Christ, I suppose. In the end - all the other draining things -- when Christ returns, will all these still matter?