The "Unreasonable" Kindness of God
The true title is, the Exceeding Great Kindness of God, which defintely boggles the heart and minds of men.
I cannot understand, Lord, why You are soooooooooooooooooooo Kind. I guess, the reason I can conclude is, You are what Your name says You are. You are that You are. You said Your name is "I AM THAT I AM". You said, You are gracious. So You ARE gracious; so gracious, so forgiving, I am silenced.
How did I come to this conclusion? Some time back, I lost some personal effects. It was pure foolishness and naivete that brought this foolishness. Sometimes we think we know someone, then we realize later after being burned, that we actually do not know the person. Sigh.
Anyway, I foolishly trusted the person with some information. The next thing I need, my things were stolen. Gone. And I only knew it because the Lord told me to check my stuff. The week before, He placed a warning to ensure it's kept safely and hidden. Being the procrastinator, I left it too late, and then the following week, it was gone.
I was dumbstruck by the loss. One name appeared to me at the discovery. Then for a week, I was in disbelief. Then I prayed for clarity of "who did it". I was unable to hear, because the voice of shock at betrayal and unbelief was louder than anything else. So I kept silent. Heartbroken. One of the items I loved, however, was returned supernaturally. Finally when all things became calm, I wanted to ask a certain person to ascertain the situation. Even the timing of our query, the Lord revealed. That it would be before Christmas. We tried to schedule the event earlier. But we just had too many unavoidable stuff that came up. It truly happened just before Christmas. That was how the story ended last year. Inconclusive. No solid evidence oh "who done it".
For some reason, this year, we felt to take a certain decision in this season of Lent.
As soon as we made the decision, I dreamt. In the dream, I realised who was the person "who did it", and wanted to confront. But the confrontation brought a defensive response. The dream detailed - the guilt the person felt, the tug-of-war in the emotions : to confess or not, the excuse the person gave to justify the person's act - they can always buy it again, the place where the personal effects were, and other details. In a nutshell, when I woke up, I felt the Lord was saying, Don't bother confronting. It's pointless. The person does not want to return the items to you.
I was dumbfounded again. But I suddenly had a glimpse of God's heart. His work in a person's life is precious. If I were to confront the person, it would cause rebellion to rise up. Let Him continue to convict. In other words, I felt I was to value to convicting the Lord was doing in the person's heart more than the loss of my personal effects. It was part of the salvation of the person's soul.
(At this point, seriously, it would be natural to respond to this dream by bashing the person up, screaming curses at the pain of betrayal, and drag the person to the police station.). Well, many times, I had been tempted to curse. But there's this verse, that says, Bless and curse not thine enemies.) But for some reason, I felt like, Grace, God's grace, working in me to be more gracious. I know some of my friends reading this might think, what a wimp, go and drag the person to the courts. As far as I know in my heart, some of the items have been disposed of. Vengeance is mine, I will repay, that's what God says.
This revelation of God's heart, I consider priceless. Of what extend He would do - to bring a person to eternal salvation.
Today, after the decision has been effected, I suddenly had a dream again in the afternoon. I dreamt I was really angry, and was on a warpath to reveal and complain about what the person had done. In the dream, I then met someone I respected, who said, 'You know how some ___ people are treated ...' Basically, the person was like trying to explain things to me so I would gain inner understanding to why a person behaved the way they did. I woke up wondering whether I was really angry. After all, I had surrendered the matter into God's hands - yes, a quite a number of times. Tonight, I realised that I was truly angry, with the person. But yet, here again, is the gentle reminder, which I felt was the Lord saying, be understanding.
So here I am Lord, speechless, at what I feel You are saying. Your kindness, I beg Your pardon, is "unreasonable" to my mind. "Unreasonable" because I cannot reason or comprehend Your great mercy. Here I am again, at the mercy of God myself. And I am now, in fact, deeply thankful, trembling, at the "unreasonable", or in truth, the exceeding great kindness of the Lord. And I am deeply rejoicing inside, of how kind the Lord truly is, because, I know, I am a great sinner myself, and am in need of His salvation daily. Yes, there are things I can immediately recall that have not been so "righteous". Hence, I am deeply deeply thankful, for a glimpse of His great indescribable kindness and graciousness in exercising mercy to us. Thank You Lord. This glimpse of Your heart, is a far greater truth, much much more precious than, yes, (now am reminded - You called them baubles) the baubles, I have lost. Thank You Lord, for Your revelation of Your goodness. Amen.
This truth gives me great relief knowing in whose hands my life is in. Thank God for God!!!!!
I cannot understand, Lord, why You are soooooooooooooooooooo Kind. I guess, the reason I can conclude is, You are what Your name says You are. You are that You are. You said Your name is "I AM THAT I AM". You said, You are gracious. So You ARE gracious; so gracious, so forgiving, I am silenced.
How did I come to this conclusion? Some time back, I lost some personal effects. It was pure foolishness and naivete that brought this foolishness. Sometimes we think we know someone, then we realize later after being burned, that we actually do not know the person. Sigh.
Anyway, I foolishly trusted the person with some information. The next thing I need, my things were stolen. Gone. And I only knew it because the Lord told me to check my stuff. The week before, He placed a warning to ensure it's kept safely and hidden. Being the procrastinator, I left it too late, and then the following week, it was gone.
I was dumbstruck by the loss. One name appeared to me at the discovery. Then for a week, I was in disbelief. Then I prayed for clarity of "who did it". I was unable to hear, because the voice of shock at betrayal and unbelief was louder than anything else. So I kept silent. Heartbroken. One of the items I loved, however, was returned supernaturally. Finally when all things became calm, I wanted to ask a certain person to ascertain the situation. Even the timing of our query, the Lord revealed. That it would be before Christmas. We tried to schedule the event earlier. But we just had too many unavoidable stuff that came up. It truly happened just before Christmas. That was how the story ended last year. Inconclusive. No solid evidence oh "who done it".
For some reason, this year, we felt to take a certain decision in this season of Lent.
As soon as we made the decision, I dreamt. In the dream, I realised who was the person "who did it", and wanted to confront. But the confrontation brought a defensive response. The dream detailed - the guilt the person felt, the tug-of-war in the emotions : to confess or not, the excuse the person gave to justify the person's act - they can always buy it again, the place where the personal effects were, and other details. In a nutshell, when I woke up, I felt the Lord was saying, Don't bother confronting. It's pointless. The person does not want to return the items to you.
I was dumbfounded again. But I suddenly had a glimpse of God's heart. His work in a person's life is precious. If I were to confront the person, it would cause rebellion to rise up. Let Him continue to convict. In other words, I felt I was to value to convicting the Lord was doing in the person's heart more than the loss of my personal effects. It was part of the salvation of the person's soul.
(At this point, seriously, it would be natural to respond to this dream by bashing the person up, screaming curses at the pain of betrayal, and drag the person to the police station.). Well, many times, I had been tempted to curse. But there's this verse, that says, Bless and curse not thine enemies.) But for some reason, I felt like, Grace, God's grace, working in me to be more gracious. I know some of my friends reading this might think, what a wimp, go and drag the person to the courts. As far as I know in my heart, some of the items have been disposed of. Vengeance is mine, I will repay, that's what God says.
This revelation of God's heart, I consider priceless. Of what extend He would do - to bring a person to eternal salvation.
Today, after the decision has been effected, I suddenly had a dream again in the afternoon. I dreamt I was really angry, and was on a warpath to reveal and complain about what the person had done. In the dream, I then met someone I respected, who said, 'You know how some ___ people are treated ...' Basically, the person was like trying to explain things to me so I would gain inner understanding to why a person behaved the way they did. I woke up wondering whether I was really angry. After all, I had surrendered the matter into God's hands - yes, a quite a number of times. Tonight, I realised that I was truly angry, with the person. But yet, here again, is the gentle reminder, which I felt was the Lord saying, be understanding.
So here I am Lord, speechless, at what I feel You are saying. Your kindness, I beg Your pardon, is "unreasonable" to my mind. "Unreasonable" because I cannot reason or comprehend Your great mercy. Here I am again, at the mercy of God myself. And I am now, in fact, deeply thankful, trembling, at the "unreasonable", or in truth, the exceeding great kindness of the Lord. And I am deeply rejoicing inside, of how kind the Lord truly is, because, I know, I am a great sinner myself, and am in need of His salvation daily. Yes, there are things I can immediately recall that have not been so "righteous". Hence, I am deeply deeply thankful, for a glimpse of His great indescribable kindness and graciousness in exercising mercy to us. Thank You Lord. This glimpse of Your heart, is a far greater truth, much much more precious than, yes, (now am reminded - You called them baubles) the baubles, I have lost. Thank You Lord, for Your revelation of Your goodness. Amen.
This truth gives me great relief knowing in whose hands my life is in. Thank God for God!!!!!
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