searching for an adventure
Our minds are constantly in a battle. I find myself in an euphoria over simple things: perhaps a majestic cloud in the evening. A cloudless day in the clear blue sky. Otters frolicking in the river across our apartment (yes, despite its pollution). Eagles flying in the sky. Waking up to the climbing movements of our son. The soft caress of the breeze on my face. Watching the waves crash onto the beach and then running back into the big blue sea. Alright so I am a hopeless romantic. I am deeply moved by the etchings of God on nature. I wish I could see thousands of other things with my own eyes.. like cherry blossoms in full bloom, glasiers that I've read about in Heidi, the feeling of living life fully. I want to travel. Fly. See new things. Eat new foods. Find treasures in obscure shops. Go to a real growers' market. Smell the fresh produce. Then rush home and cook up a storm. Visit a farm. Get dirty experiencing farming - like the adventures in Enid Blyton's books.
Yet, this very simple contentment can sometimes get easily shattered, and the eyes that look outward turns inward ever so easily. When a worry comes, or a careless comment, a mosquito sting, or looking in the mirror and seeing one's own belly jiggling like marmalade jelly...sigh... Tunnel vision sets in, and not so postive emotions are stirred. the smile turns into a sigh. The bright confidence starts to dim.
What shall I do? How do I keep on living in times like these? My specs happen to need changing recently. Is this a simple sign for a simpleton like me to have my focus re-adjusted?
I like Forest Gump. I like the way he experienced life by seeing the good even in the midst of evil. The underlying philosophy that if we just do what we are told by our authorities (in my real life, it means, Jesus) - that things will work out in the end.
Well, this snail wants to get out of the box. And start moving onto the marathon line.. speaking of which, I have not even joined a marathon before. Where on earth and what have I been doing with my life? Oh God, please help me live life and not let each day pass by without experiencing something good and new from You.
Will anything change? I am keeping my fingers crossed. I want to go to sheep country. hahaha. Eat a honeycomb. Breathe fresh air. Shop for classy cheap clothes hahahaah. Anyway, this is my dream. A little like the house with the white picket fence. My desire for adventure is still strong. I want to live life, Lord. Bring us on an adventure with You. Is this request good with You, God? I sure don't want to sit and man away the rest of my life, nor live under the shadow of a shell thinking that's the whole world. Please help me Lord.
p.s. maybe now I understand why people have mid-life crises. hahahaah. Has the life I lived left any imprints of any significance? And how is significance measured, anyway? I only see 1 Cor 13 presently... Where are my in-line skates anyway? I think I'd better go buy a new pair...
Yet, this very simple contentment can sometimes get easily shattered, and the eyes that look outward turns inward ever so easily. When a worry comes, or a careless comment, a mosquito sting, or looking in the mirror and seeing one's own belly jiggling like marmalade jelly...sigh... Tunnel vision sets in, and not so postive emotions are stirred. the smile turns into a sigh. The bright confidence starts to dim.
What shall I do? How do I keep on living in times like these? My specs happen to need changing recently. Is this a simple sign for a simpleton like me to have my focus re-adjusted?
I like Forest Gump. I like the way he experienced life by seeing the good even in the midst of evil. The underlying philosophy that if we just do what we are told by our authorities (in my real life, it means, Jesus) - that things will work out in the end.
Well, this snail wants to get out of the box. And start moving onto the marathon line.. speaking of which, I have not even joined a marathon before. Where on earth and what have I been doing with my life? Oh God, please help me live life and not let each day pass by without experiencing something good and new from You.
Will anything change? I am keeping my fingers crossed. I want to go to sheep country. hahaha. Eat a honeycomb. Breathe fresh air. Shop for classy cheap clothes hahahaah. Anyway, this is my dream. A little like the house with the white picket fence. My desire for adventure is still strong. I want to live life, Lord. Bring us on an adventure with You. Is this request good with You, God? I sure don't want to sit and man away the rest of my life, nor live under the shadow of a shell thinking that's the whole world. Please help me Lord.
p.s. maybe now I understand why people have mid-life crises. hahahaah. Has the life I lived left any imprints of any significance? And how is significance measured, anyway? I only see 1 Cor 13 presently... Where are my in-line skates anyway? I think I'd better go buy a new pair...
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