trust like a child

Today i did something mothers normally would consider a taboo. I gave my boy weetbix pancakes with bananas for his dinner. My mom would probably shake her head. Where are his vege and meat? er, well, the pancakes were made with his formula milk, eggs, weetbix, bananas, wheat flour, butter and olive oil. i supposed that might be a tad healthier than the chinese take out dinner we were having: fried vermicelli with tiny shrimp and bits of bbq pork and little bits of bean sprouts. Hubby tried to comfort me by saying, Bill Cosby was once asked to serve dinner to his children. So since he had a free hand, he decided to give them chocolate cake. Well, he reasoned, it has wheat, eggs, flour... :)

As I watch him eat, he looked so contented. His face was at peace. All he was concerned about was whether his parents were around. He sat happily at the chair, eating and smiling. Contentment. No worries. Absolute trust.

Mark 11:13-16
13 Then they brought little children to Him, that He might touch them; but the disciples rebuked those who brought them. 14 But when Jesus saw it, He was greatly displeased and said to them, “Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of God. 15 Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it.” 16 And He took them up in His arms, laid His hands on them, and blessed them.


Suddenly this verse came to mind, receive the kingdom like a little child. A child trusts absolutely. And I realised that I have been having a lot of adult concerns, worries about the future, finances, and the lot. The little boy just sat there, his concern was only his parents's presence. When was the last time I was only concerned about God's presence, trusting Him fully for every outcome? It certainly felt like it has been a long time.

So this evening was a reminder to myself. I should once again, put everything into God's hands and just concern myself with His presence and trusting Him. Tonight, during worship, it sure felt like the heart had been filled with so much that it needed a time to just speak the secrets of the heart to Him. He is, after all, my Abba. Thank You , Abba, for the reminder. And also, for the privilege of sharing freely from our hearts to You. Just as I am, I come, I come. You are truly all that I need, O Lamb of God. I love You, Lord. Good night :)