"I was wrong"
"I'm sorry, I was wrong." "I was prejudiced." "I was proud, please forgive me." It is difficult to say these statements. Well recently, I behaved like a theological snob. seriously. I can and should kick my own ass!
I sometimes giggle with admiration recalling the confession of a friend who said something to the effect of "I don't want to be a charismatic snob". But recently, I caught myself sporting behaviour like what Paul reprimanded the Corinthians for. "I am of Paul." "I am of Apollos". Sigh, hello girl with pram, you are of the Lord! Those of the Lord's are of the household of God. God moves through them as well as though who have th grace of "charismata" and whatever it is, at the end of the day, the Lord Himself shall receive all glory. Yup. No man can take that glory!!!!
This is a good reminder. Humble pie is good for me. Have I ceased becoming a charismatic snob and subconsciously morphed into an evangelical snob?!? Will I re-emerge as some other who-knows-what-label snob who thinks she knows too well as time progesses on??? God have mercy on me. Humblepie is not only good! It has now become a lifeline in this continual metamorphosis of a human life to reflect those of our Saviour and Lord, Jesus Christ. God have mercy on this worm.
Humble pie tastes good. good for the soul. Lifting for the spirit. I just ate one recently and am thankful for that. Learning to continually accept people's differences and realise that God has His purposes released through everyone despite their different expression of the same faith is something I am learning to accept and understand. More grace of humility please...
The manner of speaking which I thought was not too connected with reality turned out to be imprinted strongly, encouraging some and lightening the heart of others. I acknowledge, my judgment was wrong. I was proud. I was puffed up. I thought I knew better. But in all my thinking in that realm, it only brought futility. Because it was simply, pride. No love - as it was not " an act of forebearance." It did not "believe in all things, hope in all things". It was : I thought the way I thought was right.
But because of God's mercy, my heart twinge with the pain of conviction. Wrong. So in the end, His mercy has led me again to this point. To the tree of humility. To the Tree of Life. For a second, I partook of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. I thought I knew what was Good, what was Evil. But now, because of the Lord's great love and mercy, He has brought me to the foot of the Tree of Life. As I looked up at the Tree, in its place, I saw the Lord hanging on the Cross, saying, Behold thy mother, behold thy son. In other words, he is your brother. She is your sister, We are family, So do your best to love, accept and support one another. Respect the difference of opinions, for they have their purposes in them, and God moves through the differences.
So when I thought I knew something should not, or perhaps - should be done this way and not that -- when it was not even in my jurisdiction as it was not my responsibility. I had, unwittingly, been deceived by my own pride -- into eating the fruit from teh Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. And its poison started working in me, producing frustration, angst - and worries of the mind -- :why it was not done in such and sucn a manner." And in voicing it, the bitter spring defiled others. Oh what destruction it has potential to bring. But the Lord had mercy.
Before it produced further destruction in me, the heart felt His conviction. "Enough! Stop! Wrong path!" the heart cries out. The mind is still fuzzy, caught up in the deceptive clouds of pride and ignorance. So it could not comprehend.
Now the mind has been cleared of the fuzziness of its ignorance. It sees as the Lord reveals. You were wrong. See what I have done and brought blessing though that situation.
My response now is: Yes, Lord. I was wrong. Thank You for pointing it out. Thank You for showing me the error of myways. Please forgive me for the hurt ZI have caused You and also the bitterness that may have infected others who might have read my thoughts. Please forgive me and cleanse me and bring healing as well to anyone affected by this error. In Jesus' name. amen. Thus ended the train of thought, and now sleep beckons.
Thank God for His mercy!!!!
I sometimes giggle with admiration recalling the confession of a friend who said something to the effect of "I don't want to be a charismatic snob". But recently, I caught myself sporting behaviour like what Paul reprimanded the Corinthians for. "I am of Paul." "I am of Apollos". Sigh, hello girl with pram, you are of the Lord! Those of the Lord's are of the household of God. God moves through them as well as though who have th grace of "charismata" and whatever it is, at the end of the day, the Lord Himself shall receive all glory. Yup. No man can take that glory!!!!
This is a good reminder. Humble pie is good for me. Have I ceased becoming a charismatic snob and subconsciously morphed into an evangelical snob?!? Will I re-emerge as some other who-knows-what-label snob who thinks she knows too well as time progesses on??? God have mercy on me. Humblepie is not only good! It has now become a lifeline in this continual metamorphosis of a human life to reflect those of our Saviour and Lord, Jesus Christ. God have mercy on this worm.
Humble pie tastes good. good for the soul. Lifting for the spirit. I just ate one recently and am thankful for that. Learning to continually accept people's differences and realise that God has His purposes released through everyone despite their different expression of the same faith is something I am learning to accept and understand. More grace of humility please...
The manner of speaking which I thought was not too connected with reality turned out to be imprinted strongly, encouraging some and lightening the heart of others. I acknowledge, my judgment was wrong. I was proud. I was puffed up. I thought I knew better. But in all my thinking in that realm, it only brought futility. Because it was simply, pride. No love - as it was not " an act of forebearance." It did not "believe in all things, hope in all things". It was : I thought the way I thought was right.
But because of God's mercy, my heart twinge with the pain of conviction. Wrong. So in the end, His mercy has led me again to this point. To the tree of humility. To the Tree of Life. For a second, I partook of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. I thought I knew what was Good, what was Evil. But now, because of the Lord's great love and mercy, He has brought me to the foot of the Tree of Life. As I looked up at the Tree, in its place, I saw the Lord hanging on the Cross, saying, Behold thy mother, behold thy son. In other words, he is your brother. She is your sister, We are family, So do your best to love, accept and support one another. Respect the difference of opinions, for they have their purposes in them, and God moves through the differences.
So when I thought I knew something should not, or perhaps - should be done this way and not that -- when it was not even in my jurisdiction as it was not my responsibility. I had, unwittingly, been deceived by my own pride -- into eating the fruit from teh Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. And its poison started working in me, producing frustration, angst - and worries of the mind -- :why it was not done in such and sucn a manner." And in voicing it, the bitter spring defiled others. Oh what destruction it has potential to bring. But the Lord had mercy.
Before it produced further destruction in me, the heart felt His conviction. "Enough! Stop! Wrong path!" the heart cries out. The mind is still fuzzy, caught up in the deceptive clouds of pride and ignorance. So it could not comprehend.
Now the mind has been cleared of the fuzziness of its ignorance. It sees as the Lord reveals. You were wrong. See what I have done and brought blessing though that situation.
My response now is: Yes, Lord. I was wrong. Thank You for pointing it out. Thank You for showing me the error of myways. Please forgive me for the hurt ZI have caused You and also the bitterness that may have infected others who might have read my thoughts. Please forgive me and cleanse me and bring healing as well to anyone affected by this error. In Jesus' name. amen. Thus ended the train of thought, and now sleep beckons.
Thank God for His mercy!!!!
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