Restoring balance in a teetering world - talk with God

This morning I woke up and felt terrible. I dreamt it was past midnight, maybe about 1 am, and I was telling hubby that need to hang out the laundry. Like seeking his approval for my actions or something. As I was talking, the neighbour opposite our apartment opened her window and then she started hanging out her laundry. Then I thought, oh, she is busy too. But she does not have a baby. Then I opened the windows and made preparations to hang out laundry. Then I drifted to consciousness and groaned. Hubby called my name to comfort me...

Then I thought of the ladies. Praying Eph 4 came to mind. Pray. "That we may grow up in all things...love." Pray for them. Pray for me. Pray that we may grow, no longer be children.

12 for the equipping of the saints for the work of ministry, for the edifying of the body of Christ, 13 till we all come to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to a perfect man, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ; 14 that we should no longer be children, tossed to and fro and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, in the cunning craftiness of deceitful plotting, 15 but, speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into Him who is the head--Christ-- 16 from whom the whole body, joined and knit together by what every joint supplies, according to the effective working by which every part does its share, causes growth of the body for the edifying of itself in love.

Restoring balance in a dangerously teetering world. Lord, I can't go on like this. Keep compromising, keep not having, keep taking shortcuts on myself. I feel like this because my hair needs cutting, feel exhausted even after sleeping, and my hand has been hurting for more than a week, and I keep saying, I'm ok, keep going on.

Truth is, I am not. My focus is off Lord. I need You. And I find myself in a blur when life gets too busy, Father, without me stopping by to say Hi. I cannot afford to give myself shortcuts and say that I can do it on my own today without visiting You, Lord.
Lord, I just can;t live without You.
Today, I realised that YOU ARE my center. YOU ARE.
Yes, I AM.
And it's true... You said Your name is I AM. Yes, You are.
I AM.
hehehehe. Thinking about You makes me smile. Can't help it Lord. Thinking and talking about You just makes the smile go broader. You are so funny heheheheh Lord.
Why does this make you smile?
Because I just realised, Lord, that life simply does not make sense without You being the center. YOU ARE wonderful :D
Yes. (Smile).
LORD, is that a smile I see on Your face? heheheheheh).
I love you.
I love You too, Lord.
I adore you.
I adore You too, Lord.
....
....
Keep on writing...
huh?
Keep on writing, I want to talk to you.
oh. ok.
I love You Lord,
When you write , your heart opens up. So write so that my thoughts can fill you.
I made you to write.
Oh.
Smile. I have a lot of ohs.. Lord. hehehehe
Yes. Be Humble, walk with Me.
Lord?
Write it down.
Don't take shortcuts. Take one thing at a time and FOCUS.
Just one thing at a time. Then FOCUS.
That's how you can live life.
That's called TRUSTING ME.
Oh.
Yes (smile).
Baby is awake.
I see a picture of my arms overloading, Lord, and things overwhelming.
Yes. One thing at a time.
Is there anything else You would like to speak to me about?
Now you can log off.
ok, thanks, Lord.

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