one day at a time - with Him :)
"I think i have finally begun to understand the first step in the path of trust & rest in following Jesus, thank God. Leave it completely to him. hahahahaah. what a journey. phew. better late than never :)"
I have a confession. I have been struggling to follow Jesus for the past dont know how many years. The early beginnings were really great... well, anyway, I want to write it down as a reminder before I forget. Paper is stronger than memory. Remember that well, Girl.
For the past few months, I have been wondering on several mattters. You know how you feel deeply about some things but they dont actually have a description to them - I mean, no words to describe them? hehehe I finally realise as I write it down (as Habakkuk 2:1-4) says, I was actually wondering: where or how will I get to where I am supposed to go? Esp in regard to future. I had a conversation with the Lord that I wanted to do what I was "trained for." I guess a lot of times we fall into the trap of worldly thinking - what can we do to achieve something.
Anyway, to cut the story short. I was reminded to retrace my steps. Renew first love. Do first works. These past few days - or was it since yesterday?- A friedn was talking to me about Kingdom thinking. That the BOC lacks the manifestation of the reality of Christ. To cut the story even shorter: I recalled a verse that says, Your gift will make room for you." That's what Proverbs said.
I guess that settles it. I know Jesus called His disciples to be with Him. That was the calling. The main calling. Acts said the apostles spent time with the Word and in prayer. I think it always start with that. So at least, I have come to once again see this path before me. Leave the rest - what happens in future to the Lord, anyway. Because we cannot even see tomorrow. So I am grateful. This is somethign anyone can do. be with the Lord. I hope I will have good success in this.
So the focus is on HIm. And not to be so worried about what is going to happen, how will i get there, what vehicle, etc. Just complete trust in Him. Pursuse what He places on my heart. One thing at a time. Right now, looks like I am seeing things being possibly taken out of my hand. I believe this also, is GRace and Truth. He knows me too well. That I know. ahem. So yes Lord, I will leave it to you. I just take one day at a time. One adventure at a time. heheheh. thanks good night Lord. let it be so.
When I finally accept my insignificance - and my total dependency on HIm, I am so thankful to see His significance made clearer. Maybe to share one day. tata.
I have a confession. I have been struggling to follow Jesus for the past dont know how many years. The early beginnings were really great... well, anyway, I want to write it down as a reminder before I forget. Paper is stronger than memory. Remember that well, Girl.
For the past few months, I have been wondering on several mattters. You know how you feel deeply about some things but they dont actually have a description to them - I mean, no words to describe them? hehehe I finally realise as I write it down (as Habakkuk 2:1-4) says, I was actually wondering: where or how will I get to where I am supposed to go? Esp in regard to future. I had a conversation with the Lord that I wanted to do what I was "trained for." I guess a lot of times we fall into the trap of worldly thinking - what can we do to achieve something.
Anyway, to cut the story short. I was reminded to retrace my steps. Renew first love. Do first works. These past few days - or was it since yesterday?- A friedn was talking to me about Kingdom thinking. That the BOC lacks the manifestation of the reality of Christ. To cut the story even shorter: I recalled a verse that says, Your gift will make room for you." That's what Proverbs said.
I guess that settles it. I know Jesus called His disciples to be with Him. That was the calling. The main calling. Acts said the apostles spent time with the Word and in prayer. I think it always start with that. So at least, I have come to once again see this path before me. Leave the rest - what happens in future to the Lord, anyway. Because we cannot even see tomorrow. So I am grateful. This is somethign anyone can do. be with the Lord. I hope I will have good success in this.
So the focus is on HIm. And not to be so worried about what is going to happen, how will i get there, what vehicle, etc. Just complete trust in Him. Pursuse what He places on my heart. One thing at a time. Right now, looks like I am seeing things being possibly taken out of my hand. I believe this also, is GRace and Truth. He knows me too well. That I know. ahem. So yes Lord, I will leave it to you. I just take one day at a time. One adventure at a time. heheheh. thanks good night Lord. let it be so.
When I finally accept my insignificance - and my total dependency on HIm, I am so thankful to see His significance made clearer. Maybe to share one day. tata.
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